Why a penguin?

I have always wondered why am I such a fan of penguins, other than that they are amazing animals. But why do I feel such a strong connection with them? Was I one in a past life? I was just browsing through Facebook when I came across this being posted on a wall. It makes so much sense to me, why have I never thought about this before? Maybe I haven't had the right spiritual thought or understandings to find the reasons why. 

Maybe I have been living in my dark side for so long now and now I am moving through to my light side, just as we are moving form a darker age to a lighter and newer one, one where this haven't been written. One where there is still that unknown, the Mayan calender couldn't look any further so what is to come next is from the unknown. A time when we can change what we want more than ever.

Stop showing your back to people, stop living in the dark. Like a penguin, like me, live life face on, show life the light.

King Charles - Lady Percy

This is a song that I really love. I am very often known to my friends as Percy, so I like to think i'm Lady Percy. Have a listen and let me know what you think?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slm3BcOqMlk

People come and people go.

I am starting to understand that through my changing personally and my spiritual awareness  I will leave people such as good friends behind. This is a very sad thought for me as I have come along way with most of my really good friends. I know people come and go in your life but it is sad to thing of all the people who have left or will leave. I guess we have to think of it as once we have learned all we can from one another we will slowly drift away but this then will open a door for a new person to teach you what they can.

Its like each experience we go through a little seed/gem/pearl of wisdom is bestowed in you after that you can take on into the next stage of your life. The mistakes you once made with your relationship with that person can be used to improve your other and forthcoming ones. This is something we often do in our romantic partners and relationships so why do we often forget that in other types of relationships such as friendship. 

Why should you continue a relationship of any form if it is seen to be destructive? Why do we always place ourselves in these situations? I think I do because I don't like to let go or I get a feeling that there is unfinished business. When people leave suddenly or slowly distance themselves whilst you don't fully notice and then when you do it can be too late it can be harder to let go. It is always sad but you can live in the knowledge that you may come together again, either in this life or during another time. A very close friend of mine has only been in my life for a year or so but we instantly had a connection  Its a feeling like we have known one another for years. In asking a mutual friend if we knew each other before, she plainly said yes! This was without any hesitation or thought, she couldn't place when but said we had defiantly once before known each other. This comes as another friend seems to be drifting from me. It is deeply upsetting that this friend is no longer as big a part of my life as once was, but I have a lot to thank them for. They have helped me to start to understand who I am and they will always remain in a very close part in my heart.

New moon, New beginnings but never forgetting the old

I haven't blogged in ages and I have suddenly felt the need to. I need to share the changes in my life. I need to tell my story as through the telling and teachings of others we can learn new things about ourselves and apply different pieces of wisdom form one story and experience to another.

I have recently embarked on a long journey, a journey that will change the way I look at life both mine and the collective. It has already made some changes in my life. I no longer find my self apologising for the decisions that I make and am learning to trust my instinct. I have always been a believer in what happens, happens for a reason but I don't think I have fully understood that and what it means exactly until embarking on the journey. People often don't like negative things happening to them but we need to experience these thing to learn form them, to take the needed lessons and therefore increase our wisdom in that lesson. If we don't experience negativity how can we distinguish what is good and what is bad? How do we know truly when we have been rewarded for something? 

So what have I started doing?

I started by receiving Creative Kinesiology. This was to help with a lot of the mixed up and angry feelings that I was experiencing. I didn't know where to turn or why I was starting to loose myself, feelings that I wasn't used too and wanted to loose. The Creative Kinesiology has helped me in finding my own strengths and with dealing with difficult issues such as a long term grief. It uses your muscle tensions to help find problems or in the understanding in why you are feeling/acting/thinking the way you are. I went in with a completely open mind and not knowing what to expect and the truth is, it has changed me for the better. 

Through this I was introduced to the native american medicine or healing wheel. Each of the directions we know today; North, South, East and West, have a meaning, purpose and guardians. I have attended two wheels now the first about positivity and the second about sowing the seeds. Each of them were completely different and the energy created in both were different but still very strong. The first again changed the way I looked at things. It was like I was finally back in my own body and had stopped observing form the outside questioning what I was doing and why. I feel alive again. The second wheel was about planting seeds, now that could mean seeds of wisdom and of the lessons to be learnt from present and past experiences, I'm not 100% sure. Only the next few weeks will show, as things and new beginnings, ideas and experiences are had. What is important now may not be in the future, what troubles me now may not. 

All I know is I am loving everything that is unfolding around me.